I’m not a depressive person generally, I’m am upbeat person who looks for the funny side of life.
Sometimes, like anyone else, I get overwhelmed. Recently, I have been very close to becoming completely overwhelmed and sinking into the abyss…
Thankfully, friends make all the difference.
The scale of the effort required to get my house back together after the basement waterproofing project is much larger than I thought. Many things have gone wrong along the way, from the toilet overflowing upstairs to a leak into a faucet connected to the washing machine to the collapse of a large free-standing cupboard in which my wife kept craft stuff. I’ve also realized that I have to dust every single surface downstairs, which is not a trivial undertaking.
But that’s just work, effort, stuff I have to do. How I feel has taken a hit recently.
One of my daughters, who shall remain nameless this time in case I become old and poor one day and need to stay with her, has had such childish tantrums that it has severely affected my moods. The things she’s said have been very hurtful and have taken our family of friendly cooperation into one where friction is too frequent.
As a final but pivotal note, I have seen signs that my wife may be seeing someone else. From an unexplained BlackBerry spotted by Charlotte, to a new distant approach to me, to an *absence* of any calls to non-family members on our family’s cell phone bill (how does she go out so much without organizing it?), to a few words spoken before she realized her call to me yesterday was already connected. They might all add up to nothing. Or I might have my true explanation for how all this came to pass. In either case, the lack of communication with me and emotional distance prey on my mind. Surviving this separation requires us to remain friends, but that’s not looking promising anymore.
As I said at the start, thankfully friends provide support and have made the world of difference. From very kind offers to encouraging words to distraction from the turmoil, it helps soooo much!
To all my friends, including the ones that might never read this, a big thank you for keeping me sane while life throws a few lemons at me.
Normal cheerful upbeat programming will resume shortly. That is, if I ever get a good night’s sleep.